rain

So it's raining heavily right now. And I'm at home. Sick.
I'm having a sore throat and runny nose and I just recovered from a fever.
This is all thanks to the tomyum maggi+ chocolate ice cream+ sambal vegetables+ tempura mushrooms I had on Monday. ._.
Just handed in my WR yesterday. Felt so relieved after that.
Seriously, months of hard work into one single document.
I wouldn't say I hate project work, because I chose a project that I was interested in.
But there's just so much conflict that could have been avoided.
I was reading Chloe's blog and I realised I've become quite monstrous too.
Or more specifically, PW just brings out the worst in me.
I don't remember being THAT bitchy and straight forward, but PW uncovered all this shit inside of me.
So anyhow, I think I am trying to be nicer? But everything is piling up and I'm just like ugh.
I'm the group leader and probably the most anal person in my group.
I am the IC for VA day 4.
I'm quite happy I got to be IC, but then there's really shitloads of work to be done.
BUT i know that after all of it, I would probably be the happiest person on Earth.
I mean, last year, I didn't even get any chance to participate in anything. Like I didn't really have a goal.
I went to CCA just for the sake of it and friends. But now, I'm like planning something much bigger!
I just hope I can do a good job and be less of a sloth seriously.
I know I complained about opportunities but actually a lot of opportunities came my way heh. (One door closed, another door opened?)
I have OCIP which is probably still frightening but I was so excited when I saw the itinery!
There's work attachment which I've been shortlisted for. I haven't gotten a reply but anyhow, it still sounds pretty cool to me!
There's VA which is probably going to be my baby hahaha. (cue Wondergirls song)
And like OGL applications. I'm so pumped up about it. I still hope and pray I get it omgomgomg.
I'm like 1/10th into saving for a harp. Lolkcan. Really trying to save money okay!
Having a jar to save money really helps because I'm tempted to take money, but I haven't taken ANY amount AT ALL. SERIOUSLY IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE OMG.
I thought that I saved a lot, turns out I did not save as much as I thought I would heh.
And then there's academics. I know I didn't do as well this time, but I think I'm pretty hopeful after the miracle last year, getting 6 points for Os.
I wanted to apply for H3 but I think I should focus more on the other subjects.
And I admit I wanted to apply it for the wrong reasons. Ok not exactly wrong but I know that if I apply for H3 Lit because of those reasons, I would not be able to sincerely work hard for it.
I really want to do well for A Levels and I'm seriously going to start this holiday(after all the PW shit).
I'm looking for the joy in studying again, especially since JC is the second most specialised(after Uni) form of education for me.(Artssss)
So many thingums I am so excited for! On another note, I need to start clearing my room.
It looks like an animal den.
And then on yet another note, I need to be less bipolar in my blog posts. I realised I jump everywhere in my blog posts wtf.