Drama workshop

I had a greatttt drama workshop yesterday from 8.30am to 5pm.
First thoughts were "shiattttt" cause it coincides with our OP rehearsal and I seriously didn't think I would have the mood. I thought I would want to focus on OP and wouldn't really care about the workshop.
In the end I was so excited for the workshop that I wanted to rush out of OP asap lol.
Anyhow, it was really an eye-opener! ACJC and TPJC were there!
The people there are really really nice, and so were the teachers!
So apparently VJ is speciallll because we only offer acting as Individual Skill.
It'll be so much fun to experience the other Individual Skills though. *sigh*
And so jealous of ACJC! They have singing, dancing, acting lessons for their Drama Elective( DEP, we call ours TSD).
Our lessons are just focused on acting. Oh welllll. But they are really busy, with public performances and all.
I guess it's because we aren't having a lot of activities, and that's why we want more.
They are kind of stressed up about itttt. But it is soooo cooooooooolllllll.
The workshop taught me a lot, and now I just need to remember and apply it to my practical work.
Still looking for a monologue and a duologue though. :(
But a lot of truths were revealed. Acting as an irony, how it should be truthful but well, is not truth.
And there should always be some sort of reality in acting, which is really the core of acting.
As actors, more often than not, we tend to have some kind of acting mode which we switch on and off, and it hinders us. Acting becomes more superficial and less human.
One of the teachers, Andrew, mentioned that everyone can perform, but not everyone can act.
I do realise that there are more and more actors who just perform. They don't really feel the humanness of their characters, and just say lines for the sake of it. There might not be a truth to what they are saying.
We really need to dig deep into our own experiences, and use them to help us in understanding a character, and attitude.
I've always heard of an actor's toolbox, how you can access something after you master it. It is true.
After knowing all this and really applying it, I know that the next time I get a script, I'll be able to understand how to work the character.

And also, be more daring and open to experimenting.
I quote Michael for this:
" Self-consciousness destroys art."

fill in the blanks friday.

Saw this and I thought I should do it :)

1. My favorite feeling in all the world is feeling calm while in a dream-like state. Basically, it's in places where I'll be able to close my eyes, and just feel absolute serenity. I have instances of it when I listen to dreamy music. However, I experienced absolute peace (I know it sounds spiritual) when I was in Hokkaido last year. My dad  and I were on a snow mobile. And it was pretty noisy, but we stopped in the middle of some random place, kind of like a plateau. When we looked over,  there was just snow everywhere. No trees, no anything. And the snow was the fluffy kind. I just closed my eyes and experienced the snow breeze and looked up and saw that the sky was perfectly blue. I remember thinking whether Heaven would be like this. Then i made a snow angel and just felt soooooo calm.

2.  My favorite smell is  cinammon. Just a really comforting scent that will make me feel all warm inside. :) I love smelling it especially during the winter months.

3.  My favorite taste is sweet. Love it when I'm eating chocolate and just enjoying the sweetness of it. But I don't like things which are overly sweet though.

4. The most beautiful thing I've ever seen was  the sea when I was in pattaya, thailand. I know it's not like an incident or anything, but I really can't recall super memorable incident. The sea was clear. And it just made me feel so calm and peaceful. And at that point in time, I was 10, so no worries.
Maybe a recent one was of an old man selling ice cream on a cart. It was raining, and this uncle just rode to my void deck. It was heartwarming to see all the kids running to him with smiles on their faces.

5. The best sound ever is  the sound of a harp playing. I'm totally in love with the magical sound the harp makes.

6. A smell that reminds me of my childhood is  citrus and maybe baby powder. I use to have a citrus air freshener in my sister's room and I spent my childhood using the com(ok i know i have no life), and so weirdly, that scent made me feel nostalgic. For baby powder, pretty self-explanatory haha.

7.  My favorite of all the senses is sense of sight. I can't imagine not being able to see, not experiencing the beautiful sights nature has brought us, but at the same time it exposes us to the ugliness of the world. I was actually reminded of this clip below. Maybe without sight, I'll still have imagination? :)

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This is super gorgeous :)

Anyhow, I'm having a bit of a headache now @@

Just spent a whole day at the ocip day camp.

Ate so much :(

I've been exercising regularly yay. Really want to lose weight and be more fit la.

PW is going to come to an end. In like, a week or so =D =D =D

And the year is going to end in two months.

It's so freaking scary. I really need to take time to sit myself down, and to rethink my purpose in life.

I think I've been so consumed by the media; how it defines success.

I really need to look beyond the material gains in life.

A couple of my friends shared Dr Richard Teo's story, and after reading through it, I realised a lot of things.

Just google his story, and it would really make you think.

I guess I really need to realign myself, to go in the right direction.

Argh, guess that needs time and settling down.

But right now, I'm just so busy. Or maybe, it is just an excuse.

less than a small fish

Just had a heart-to-heart talk with my pw groupmates. :')
Happy that we feel the same way.
It's like one of the good things for PW, you get to bond during (supposed) PW time.
So must injustice and shit in this world. And that is what spurs me on to work even harder.
I count myself lucky in that I am able to empathise with others.
But I count myself unlucky when it comes to my own wants; I can't achieve it merely using what I have.
It works both ways, but it really affects you as a person.
You can always be an extreme though.

anyhow i really need to lose weight lol.
during our chat, i managed to show them my sec 3 picture and they exclaimed i looked slimmer.
I DID and i felt greater then too! now i feel like this gigantic pile of fats ugh.
I NEED MOTIVATION ! I'm like the most ill-disciplined person everrr :(
It needs to be cultivated though! UGH but i shalt try!
Anyhowzers, so much shit for OP and my throat is like killing me!
There's a freaking ulcer at the back of my throat and I'm like UGH. :(
When it gets dry, I just feel like I'm losing my throat.

And I'm downloading Adventure Time just because of Lemon Grab and it looks pretty cute haha.
IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN LEMON GRAB,
THAT IS

rain

So it's raining heavily right now. And I'm at home. Sick.
I'm having a sore throat and runny nose and I just recovered from a fever.
This is all thanks to the tomyum maggi+ chocolate ice cream+ sambal vegetables+ tempura mushrooms I had on Monday. ._.
Just handed in my WR yesterday. Felt so relieved after that.
Seriously, months of hard work into one single document.
I wouldn't say I hate project work, because I chose a project that I was interested in.
But there's just so much conflict that could have been avoided.
I was reading Chloe's blog and I realised I've become quite monstrous too.
Or more specifically, PW just brings out the worst in me.
I don't remember being THAT bitchy and straight forward, but PW uncovered all this shit inside of me.
So anyhow, I think I am trying to be nicer? But everything is piling up and I'm just like ugh.
I'm the group leader and probably the most anal person in my group.
I am the IC for VA day 4.
I'm quite happy I got to be IC, but then there's really shitloads of work to be done.
BUT i know that after all of it, I would probably be the happiest person on Earth.
I mean, last year, I didn't even get any chance to participate in anything. Like I didn't really have a goal.
I went to CCA just for the sake of it and friends. But now, I'm like planning something much bigger!
I just hope I can do a good job and be less of a sloth seriously.
I know I complained about opportunities but actually a lot of opportunities came my way heh. (One door closed, another door opened?)
I have OCIP which is probably still frightening but I was so excited when I saw the itinery!
There's work attachment which I've been shortlisted for. I haven't gotten a reply but anyhow, it still sounds pretty cool to me!
There's VA which is probably going to be my baby hahaha. (cue Wondergirls song)
And like OGL applications. I'm so pumped up about it. I still hope and pray I get it omgomgomg.
I'm like 1/10th into saving for a harp. Lolkcan. Really trying to save money okay!
Having a jar to save money really helps because I'm tempted to take money, but I haven't taken ANY amount AT ALL. SERIOUSLY IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE OMG.
I thought that I saved a lot, turns out I did not save as much as I thought I would heh.
And then there's academics. I know I didn't do as well this time, but I think I'm pretty hopeful after the miracle last year, getting 6 points for Os.
I wanted to apply for H3 but I think I should focus more on the other subjects.
And I admit I wanted to apply it for the wrong reasons. Ok not exactly wrong but I know that if I apply for H3 Lit because of those reasons, I would not be able to sincerely work hard for it.
I really want to do well for A Levels and I'm seriously going to start this holiday(after all the PW shit).
I'm looking for the joy in studying again, especially since JC is the second most specialised(after Uni) form of education for me.(Artssss)
So many thingums I am so excited for! On another note, I need to start clearing my room.
It looks like an animal den.
And then on yet another note, I need to be less bipolar in my blog posts. I realised I jump everywhere in my blog posts wtf.

fun

Quite an eventful day today. :) Watched waiting for godot.
It was great! It was such a random timing though :/ 3pm
Definitely mind blowing and like all absurdist plays, they make me feel empty at the end.
I like how these plays make you think afterwards though. the actors were brilliant. full of energy, great chemistry.
I really have a long way to go for theatre! :)

Anyhoozers, started the day with lunch at saizeriya! Super cheap italian food heh!
The bill came up to $26.50. CHEAPPPP.
We got escargots, Panna Cotta, Chicken Bolognese Gratin and Melody's green pasta.
Then we realised that the Panna Cotta was the same price as the gratin.

 YUMS

Escargot for the first time!

I would say that they taste pretty good! They taste like mushrooms but chewier? :/

because camwhoring in the toilet is the most glam thing ever

Then lepak-ed around and walked to the DBS arts centre.

My feet were killllinggggg meeee. 

At least we got there on time. Phew.

 There were so many vjc people at the dbs arts centre. Decided to walk around after the play.

 Wanted to eat tauhway in serangoon, but succumbed to thai food in clarke quay. DIET FAIL.

Pretty good though. I liked the mango sticky rice with coconut ice cream! :) 

AND THE GREEN CURRY IS YUMMILICIOUSSSS and it has like probably a whole chicken or something okay I'm exaggerating.

Rachael decided to get azabu sabo. *diet*

In the end kena tempted fml.

COOKIES AND CREAM OMG SO NAIS BYE WAIST

 dieting girl

Haha then we walked around, sat on the quay thingum and gossiped.

Then headed home. Haha meeting two of them for PW tomorrow. #mylife

That's all!!

P.S. I got shortlisted for the work attachment! Super happy! :D

myopic

So many thoughts going through my mind right now

I'm kind of sad how i'm not following my own advice to be more positive. See the irony.
I think I need to start reading again. I read so little, and it makes me sad.
I use to read several books in a week and would derive so much happiness from it.
I feel so empty now that I've (somewhat) stopped reading.
I remember as a child, I would always be soooo wide-eyed when I'm reading picture books.
And as I grow older, novels. Now I'm just like meh, I have no time to read. And I still have loads of books that I bought which are unread.
I probably read a few pages every week, which is real bad.
I really need to be less preoccupied with things that do not matter as much and really learn to appreciate the finer things in life.
I need to make it a point to be less bitter about things and more accepting towards other things.
Something happened today really struck me.
So I was on the bus with chloe today, and i was on the Mercedes 101 bus. We were sitting on the 2 awkward seats with 2 other seats facing us. So this little boy comes up and runs to me. I was like O_O
Then he started to peel the emergency exit sticker beside me. My legs were stuck because he was leaning on me. I was confused la, cause I didn't want to hurt the boy by moving my legs and I was quite shocked. Then the father came and said that the boy is autistic. My heart broke when I heard there. I just relaxed myself and acted as if nothing happened and continue my conversation with Chloe. But at that time, there were a lot of things on mind. I felt ashamed that I was complaining about so much shit in my life about being unlucky and poor and everything, when I'm really blessed. I thought about the son, how he did not choose to be like this. Yet his innocence would not cause that much agony in him as he does not know about his own condition. I thought more about the father, how painful it must have been for him to know the truth.
And the courage that he requires to accept his own son and not hold any negative thoughts about his son every single moment.
I really need to reflect on my life. I think people tend to perceive themselves differently. I always thought that I'm this helpful, compassionate person (ok kind of ugh i know).
But I realised that I don't put much effort in really doing things that reflect this.
Instead, I do the opposite some times. It's only when things happen that causes me to open up my eyes and reflect. And I realise that it is often temporary. I'll probably revert back to my selfish self.(uh.)
I really need time to think, to reflect and to read.
I guess I'll keep reading The Secret until I really truly get it and live through it.