7-day school week

hey guyssss this week is awesome im having a 7-day school week.
wearing my awesome uniform every day even though i left my uniform in school for the first time.

just came back from *scape with beo :D
had best fries forever & artease for the first time! pretty yummy but mad expensive. </3
talked alot about stuff hehehe i love talking w her hahahahahha <3
walked around the flea and got shorts for $4.50 heh :D and it's pretty cool, there are rhinestones and stuff on the pockets. got some super awesome earrings. here they are.

there's going to be interact leadership thingum on saturday and sunday. tbh, i can't wait to meet fellow interactors. it's just that it's such a busy period and we are racing against time so it makes me panicky. :<
still have eom+ crit comm+ shitloads of studying to do. Really afraid i can't promote :<:<:<:<:<:<:<:<

kay shall go sleep and update more on my life soon. kthxbai.

not doing work. period.

ughhhh i have so much stuff to do. gonna aim to run 4km with my sister tomorrow morning(though i have a feeling it'll fail hur), go to hev's house for tsd and then rollerblade. anyhowzers, i have tsd undone, pc essay undone, written freaking report and shitloads of stuff undone. i hope i dont fail econs for promos tbh.

went out on national day how patriotic. with emma and tried to go ktv but too expensive so we went studying for like a few hours.

then yesterday, went out with my dearest 4e1. or like a quarter of them. emily, beo, xinkai, chloe, fangyuan, liting, enping, marcus, geraldp, geraldf were there. dinnered opposite zhss yumzers and went to sky garden to play. finally played animal farm and was pretty epic. no pictures sadly :< really can't wait for us to have a chalet where all of us can gather!!!

went for my second sister's graduation photoshoot today. my da jie commented that i look more natural today wtf and i put extra makeup today lor ironically. went to eat superyummy food @ watami central. mad expensive but mad good! love the cheese mochi gratin (first pic on collage) and potato mochi (5th pic). still miss japan :<

THAT'S ALL AND I SHALL FINISH PC OR ATTEMPT TO SADLIFE

i miss all of it.

had national day celebration, and felt a bit disappointed towards the end.
i remember last year, on this occasion, 4e1 took a class pic together. then, all of us were trying to enjoy the moment, because the O levels were coming and we wanted to treasure the time we have together.
Totally miss the things where everyone was enjoying the moment.
I guess though this year is different, i've really tried a lot of new things.
sometimes i think that i've wasted 17 years of my life, because other than my friends and family, i have not really experienced much.
every year was just a monotonous cycle, and every year just went by.
sometimes, i still think i'm 13, but then i realise i'm already 17 and i go like," gosh how much time do i have left until im deemed old."
i guess YOLO is kind of cliche to people, but to me, it's apparent. I never ever want to grow any older. I guess the times you have as a student are definitely more fun. Which is probably why i came to vjc with high hopes, to feel more at ease. i can say im a very community person, wherever i go, i need people who share the same interests as me. im quite rara and want to go crazy about everything. so when there are meh days, i just feel so restrained and trapped, as if i'm being forced to not be myself. yes it is true noone is controlling my thoughts, but when you're around people, you feel obliged to go along(maybe due to me being easily influenced by others).
i'm probably thinking too much. but maybe i should heed e's advice, to try to find the community i feel more comfortable in. after going through what happened in secondary three, i never want to go back to the same situation again. i really like feeling inclusive, because being empty and neglected is probably my fear.
i guess that instead of being meh about life, one should always try. try to make your experience better. or at least make it better for others. all of us want to do something meaningful in our two years. and not just remember everything as an empty shell, with nothing significant happening. time is limited and just letting it pass is a waste.

so i felt abit down and went to hevina's house for tsd. mood really became better. we had good food(heh) and i was damnn full. shepherd's pie omg and i spammed myself with potatoes... carbo :< and hummus, which is like this super funky dip which is quite yummy. and had salmon for dinner, superr nice :). fattening food today but tomorrow, i'm going to run with my sister to keep fit heh. anyway, hevina taught me how to rollerblade. being damn kiasi, i was like shouting(like always) and crying(defug). but i somehow managed to do it lol quite embarrassing though oop. yay a new life skill learnt and a tick on my bucket list.

hopefully having class dinner on friday though, can't wait to see all of the people :) tomorrow i'm just gonna stay at home and study. hmph.

july happenings

just finished the interact fund summary OTL
today's quite interesting. went studying with chloe and ended up seeing primary school friend, ex church mateS(must capitalise the S), zhonghua people, vjc senior class people. first time i see so many people i know. o____o
tried to learn how to cycle for probably the 3rd time. failed again. -cries- and i hurt my palm :(
im creating like my bucket list for this year and cycling is one of the things i need to learn!!! i shall conquer it!!!

anyhow, this month has been quite coolio. shall share some pictures from this month :>

first july: booksactually+ flea market+ baybeats with melody :)

second july: picnic@marina barrage with my girls. first time kite flying :)

twenty first july: university fair with nicola, billy bombers with nicola and melody. look fat here but heh.

twenty seventh july: met up with huixuan :> camwhored like mad cos she is huixuan. froyo and karaoke with emma :)

 twenty eighth july: died after eating the best oyster don in the world in sakae sushi(wtf i know) and revived to go to fashion showcase with hevina and melody.

THIS IS SO FUCKING DELICIOUS

 ok next few pics not july anymore but idgaf

erin tied for me a freaking dutch braid love her omg lol my mum at the back

TOMYUMWITHEMILYUNG TOMEMILYUM. OMG DEAD.

that's alllllll. july is pretttyyyyyy ok. august is gonna be busyyyyy.

heehee cool church bells ringing now :) super awesome song which is somehow related

life as it is

one can discover suffering by looking at it
but one can only understand suffering by going through it

so many things have happened this year, especially to people around me, that made me realise that i should really live each day to the fullest and to treat my parents the best that i can. im thankful for the intergenerational project because i still feel the effects of it in me, in the small gestures i do to my parents. i really treasure them a lot and though im not the best daughter, im trying hard.

anyway, school was okay today. finally studied econs during break. :D
class played ultimate frisbee trolololol quite funny. 12a12 is super unique, which is one of things i like about it.(unless it becomes like weird which is like more of a negative connotation oop.)
tsd is a mad rush. basically i have only 3 weeks for my showcase and crit comm yay.
and i still have eom to do. and econs test next week. and im using the computer now.
thats how i roll.

sharing an image of a super cute pig :) hope it makes you guys smile!

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moo

" I won't feel hurt anymore
i won't feel lost anymore
i'll feel my heart once more
i'll feel beautiful"

haven't updated for a long long long while. not even doing work now though :(

just updating with some pictures i spammed with huixuan.

love this pic cos you cant see my fat face heh

sianz

smilee

smilee

can't wait to meet my girls to again. really should start studying this week. 3 weeks to tsd showcase(WAD DE FUCK) and 5 weeks to promos. this is crazy. must. survive. this.

probably can't enjoy my national day holiday ugh...

sometimes i feel as if im living every day just anticipating for the end of the day. it makes me sad when i realise that. i really want to be able to live in the moment and enjoy it. i know something like that cannot be forced because it would only become worse. :<