LAOS

omg omg omg omg. I'm flying off to Laos in less than 6 hours.
I am not exactly excited because I didn't have enough time to hype myself lol.
It's not my first trip without my parents, but it's the longest one without my parents.
I am super super scared because of worms and shit x_x
JIAYOU MEEEEEE. i hope i learn more during the trip!!!
And i really hope I packed everything! x_x

VA was super awesome btw! Like, I'll blog in detail once I come back (I THINK). Basically it really made me proud to be a VICTORIAN! :D
like it reignited the passion la that I had for VJ during orientation. I'm so happy I got to experience the last VA! It definitely completed the year and made this year more fulfilling.
And Community Affair was a success! After so much hard work, it paid off. I was so touched can!!! Like everything was falling in place and I realised I was familiar with everything and that I contributed to it.
Okay, but I'm not ready to plan anything else ugh.

Anyway, i found super awesome earcuffs that I am super in love:
http://www.martymagic.com/french-twist-ear-cuff-bronze/
http://www.martymagic.com/spiro-ear-cuff-bronze/

WAH LAO how can it be so chio?!??! I want it but it's like $29USD ;-;
Anyhoozers, I shall start preparing for my trip. I keep having a feeling I haven't packed everything. T-T

heart

Just came back from Hevina's house :)
Great food and company as always :D
Anyway, went to Old Airport road for the first time today. :)
Seems like there's a lot of good food there. But before that, I went around blocks in Dakota to give out flyers. Interact was giving out flyers to inform the needy families of food distribution which is going to happen on Thursday. It was really an eye-opening experience. The flats were two-room flats.
Most of the elderly live alone. There was this lady who was seated outside her apartment. And when I approached her to ask if she lived there, she said yes and that she can't walk. And I presumed she lived alone. So many things were going through my mind. What happens if she falls? How does she go back into her house? I saw her pointing down(we were on the second floor) when she said she couldn't walk anymore. This reflected her desire to walk again, to go out, and experience everything again.
And she didn't rely on a wheelchair or anything. All she had was this metal walker thing.
She is probably 70-80 years old and she wouldn't have the strength to lift herself up. Yet, this walker thing was all she had. And she was such a nice old lady... Often thanking us. I could feel how genuine she was. This applied to all the families. All of them were so genuine. They kept thanking us, and thanked us with so much sincerity.
Also, I heard a story from Nicola, about an old man who had to crawl his way to the door just to answer it. It really broke my heart. I witnessed something similar as well. Several of the apartments had the elderly seated down. And I felt really bad when they had to walk over to collect the flyer. Some of them were grabbing onto the cabinets near their doors because they could not walk anymore. These elderly have no one to depend on. Only the community. But are we really doing enough to help them? If everyone plays their part, wouldn't the lives of the less fortunate be better?


Through out the flyer distribution, articles from the new paper kept appearing in my head. The articles about old people dying alone in their flats. I know it's bad luck to think of things like this when I'm talking to them. But I was so fearful of that. It's real though. And you wouldn't truly understand unless you see them.

I really hope the community affair would be able to open the eyes of the students, the same way it did to me. There was a moment then when my mind was so clear, knowing that I am impacting the lives of the elderly. And there was no sign of fatigue. Instead, there was a renewed motivation and passion to do more.

breakbakecake

Okay, with the huge responsibility from VA, I had no time for myself. So i tried to treat myself yay and I baked today.

Okay, picture does not look appetising but...

It's yummy! Tastes abit like the honey cake+ huat kueh. But this is FAT FREE because there's no oil used! And no milk! :D

And it took a pretty short time to make! Would definitely bake more heh.


Anyway, went out during the weekend with emily :)
she treated me to artease so nice hehe. Got the Ice Cream Tea (Oreo Cheesecake)
Here's pictures to distract you from the bipolar-ness of this post and the previous one.

And my ootd lol. starbucks top+ denim shorts.


Went out with Melody to Bugis on Deepavali~
I got lost(again fml) at Potong Pasir and she had to look for me lol so that her mum could drive us to Haji Lane.
OOTD again! Scallop top :)

Basically, Haji Lane is still kind of a rip-off other than stores like modparade. I saw the most adorkable wallet which was the mighty wallet with the singapore dollar as the print.
I WANTED IT SO MUCH BUT THE CHEAPEST STORE RAN OUT OF SG NOTES :( LOADS OF CHINA NOTES THOUGH LOL.
Saw SO many things I wanted in Bugis. But controlled myself not to buy any. And I didn't!!!!
In the end I spent the most on food :( :( :(
I hate going out during weekends/public holidays just cause of the crowd. But no time to enjoy.
I'm not even doing elearning oh no.

ON A FANTABULOUS NOTE. I'M AN OGL. OMG I'M SO HAPPY. CAN'T WAIT TO GO CRAZY AND LOSE MY VOICE NEXT YEAR!!!
I hope the OGL camp is not stay over because I want to stay over at Tanah Merah with mua girls <3 :)

toilet paper

Omfg i'm so so pissed.
Like people have been treating me like toilet paper. Like throwing me away after you shit.
It's like the vulgar version of willy loman's piece of fruit speech. But bears the same sentiment ok.
WHAT THE FUCK MAN I HAVE MY OWN LIFE AND MY OWN TIME.
Can't stand how some people can be so hypocritical.
Wanting me to reply to them and doubting me about what I am doing when they themselves intentionally ignore me wtf. Logic man.
Seriously, I don't think it's only one person. Sometimes I feel like I'm there to make some people feel better about themselves. How fucking selfish is that?
Like, I don't really want to be your friend really but I just want to gain the benefits myself.
I don't really feel flattered by this.
Okay rant probably ends here. Need to let out all these angst caused by hormones and stress.
I mean, you'd expect JC students to have 0 stress after project work ends. Not for me.
I have real project work to do. And then other shitholes like to comment about how VA is not going to be good cause of Interact. WTF we are juggling OCIP and VA together! What are you doing? Probably at home wanking. BITCH. OK I LIED TO YOU MY RANT DIDN'T END.
THE ANGST IS JUST ADDING UP OMG.
I've been eating loads of sweet stuff to make myself feel better. Now I'm wondering if it makes me feel way better momentarily and once I'm off it I'm like bitchier. I mean, look at what I ate today:
Lunch: Chocolate Bread
Tea break: Oreo Cheesecake Ice cream milk tea (Artease is a fucking ripoff)
Dinner: Wantons & Tauhway
Snack: Non-stop chocolate and grape mentos.

I excluded dinner because I had beehoon with omelette and sausage.
Need to go to school to learn dance tomorrow. Not as happy at the prospect of wasting more of my life taking public transport.

Meanwhile, here's a nice song to make myself feel better:





Ok adventure time time for myself to feel even better. bye

irony

Sooooo tomorrow I'm heading to my first job everrr.
It's going to be at expo, good luck to me. Somehow had this thought that it was in Toa Payoh and confused melody as well oops.
I'm going to be at some booth which encourages parents to make their babies learn swimming at a young age. How ironic is it that I do not know how to swim. Maybe I can use it to my advantage, like how I regret not learning things earlier. Hmmm.

Anyhow, Project Work is over. But I'm stressed due to real-life Project Work.
It is so difficult to meet peoples' expectations. And so many people talk so much crap.
You can't even do your own PW and you are criticising our project #okcan
I think I'm really hiding my angst and shit in front of people and it's not good.
But then I'm already acting pretty bitchy so it would become worse.

GAHHH. Anyway, I was in a train delay the other day.
My first time! It was crazyyyy. The whole platform was packed and some people shouted.
A lot others took pictures. Should've posed for them. I find it lame how some people react to things like this.
Shouting, pushing and all. Most people were probably just heading home at that time. I had a freaking job interview and I was like argh but okay. But it's a good thing I got the job interview.

Can't wait for this shit to get sorted out. I'll make it good. I swear.

hanging on

Sharing one of favourite songs. It's one of those songs I never ever skip on my playlist.

Such meaningful lyrics. The melody is so soothing. His voice is angelic.

Finished my OP, shall update more tomorrow :)

fat

Just returned from a sumptuous meal :(
Did some ab exercises and cardio to feel less guilty but still fatt.
I've been getting comments about how i look slimmer in sec3 and it's really motivating me to lose weight but ugh the food around me.
Went for dinner with family at Ichiban Boshi because my sister got her pay hahaha.

Like seriously look at all these! Mine's the one in the first picture.
Big mistake to get two mains, although they were supposed to be mini sized.
I was already satiated when I ate first half of the soba.

Then had this chicken katsu egg don x_x IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE MINI SIZE. But it was sooooo filling.

It was good la but the calories... uhm...

Omg and the total amount was $100+ for 4 people. okcan. :(

Anyhow, some pictures from october which I didn't publish. (BECAUSE INSTAGRAM IS NOT WORKING FOR MY NOOB PHONE ._. MEANING I CAN ONLY USE IT WHEN I HAVE A NEW PHONE NOOO)

Running with the gurllz. Quite failed, stopped after 2km LOL

And yes, im wearing an nyjc shirt cos emily insisted we go to nyjc to run.

Awesome scenery (ok at least imo although it's like the road) in the morning while waiting for the bus.
The moon is sooo round.

My favourite bagel yum had it for a dinner two days ago. Just had a blueberry one for lunch today. :)

That's all to conclude my boring month. Oral presentation next weeeek. AND THEN I'M FREE OMFG YAY. And then I'll be lepaking at home sian.

Anyhow, this is an awesome playlist made by Jenn you should listen to:
http://8tracks.com/imjennim/fall-into-me

Ending with a camwhore wtf