my name is insecure

Having a tough time. Nothing happening particularly, just many things running through my head.
Sometimes I seem like a happy girl, but I can never let go of the past.
I feel that my insecure self is a result of bullying in the past, and normally I become really bitchy when I think about those people.
They probably didn't mean much but I still feel useless and talentless.
My sister isn't helping when she's saying I sing horribly and all.

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Just finished orientation, vj is fun :)
Fretting about what cca to join, and feeling the pressure from my class already.
But I'm really thankful for my orientation group. Met really awesome people.
Though it's crazy to say I love all of them after 4 days, they've really been an awesome bunch.
I am obsessed with being accepted, I guess.
I haven't had stress about studies in the past, just friends(though this year, it'll probably change >_> )
Thanks to the whole of T6. And the people who chose to give their letters to me although they didn't have to. It really means alot to me. Reading the messages, I teared. I guess I forgot who I was, and through this orientation, I sort of regained a bit of myself. I remember the girls saying how I am never really helpful and all. I guess after being close to them, I did neglect treating them better.

Ending the emo-ness now. I think im schizo omg.

Some pics :)

My first friend in VJ, Melissa. She's the nicest and friendliest girl ever! :)



Yiling who is kind of crazy HAHA but really nice and funny :D



The girls :) All of them are so freaking niceeeeeee!


The group with the OGLs Sabrina, Joel and Vincent. Some of the OGmates left early though :<



Awesome T6.

Actually, when I met them at first there were so many people who reminded me of others LOL. So I was abit creeped out HAHA. But all of them were so nice! Even though we met for 4 days, they all comforted me and encouraged me omg. ;-; im gonna cry



My happy sweets :) Been nomming them when I feel down


My big face =D


kthxbai